family

Family is a important thing in life. many people know this in life even i do. but let me ask you this what is family. there is many different types of family the good type thats all ways there for you and the bad type that you think cares for you but when something happens to you or someone you love and care for they turn and run. I have found that this is something that appears alot in life if you study the world around you. myself i have both types of family in my life. but what do you concider family. i concider my friends, and relatives family. most of them are all ways there for me when i need them, but there are some of them that dont give a crap what happens to me. But here recently i found out what true family is. My father and his girlfriend. saw that i was under alot of stress and lossing weight fast. My nerves were bad and i felt like i was at rock bottom. sure i had friends to hang out with and my mother, but i still felt like something was missing in my life. i was missing happynes. and about a week ago i asked my father to take me in. i was willing to quit my job and start over. my father said come on. so that day i got on the phone and told my mom i was moving out. what confused me was she was not upset or any thing like that. That struck me as odd, at the time but then i got to thinking how much she was not around any more. i never got to spend any time with her. and the only time she was around was on payday. so that made me think all she wanted me around for was money, but money was hard to come by concidering because of her my bank account ran dry. so im glad to be moved out of the house. i feel beter about my self even if i am uneployed now. but it gives me time to think about things for awhile and get my mind together. but back to the family thing. family is people that love you and will help you in any way they can. so family for me goes past blood for me. it runs into my best friendships. and they are true friends. thats really all i have to say for now.

A New Start

this blog goes out to all my friends. as of today i have moved out of TN and in to NC. i am living with my father. the reason i done this is for a few reasons. the first reason is i felt like i was restricted from doing the things i wish to do in life. as in going to collage to further my education. or getting a good job. Mcds is a good job for some one that is still in school and dont have nothing better to do. i have worked at Mcds for 2 years now and its not a real job. A real job is something were you have to move hevy objects, or any thing else that you have to use your muscles to do i learnd that yesterday. and my body has never hurt this much, but i feel good about what i have done. now i know what i must do in life to get what i want. i must get my hands dirty and really push my body to the limits. Another thing my mother was preventing from being truley happy. she was always nagging my head off about her problems. and couldnt talk about mine. and i had alot of them in Mountain City. i had no money cause my mother took most of it so she could pay bills but it left me with very little money. even though we was keeping the bills payed i felt like i was letting money get the best of me. i realy dont care about money it just causes so many problems any more. i am now unenployed because of the move but i dont mind cause it lets me relax and clear my head. But i am looking for a new job as of now but i may be awhile till i get one. but i have a loving family here and im ready to start my life over in a new town. so i can make new friends and have new oppertunitys. but i will not forget my other friends cause they are all like brothers and sisters to me. i love them all. so daniel, cory, maria, gary, sean, and every one else i know and love dont think i will abandon you cause i wont i am always a phone call away.